My head keeps saying "No"
But my heart keeps giving in
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Monday, June 30, 2008, 7:56 PM
My heart has been really weak these few days,i know this sounds pretty corny but its true and i can feel it.
these past few weeks have gone and pass.
Today is the last day for BT2 and thats why I'm here.
Took a short break from blogging lest I get all emofied
It is rather interesting to not feel at all sad that hols were ending.
I felt nothing at all, cause it wasnt a holiday for me personally.
Been mugging for almost 3/4 of the time for BT2
but i'm certain I will do much worst than what i expected.
Late night studying till 6 in the morning took a toll on me.
I tried to readjust my biological clock to the normal 12am bedtime 2 days before the first paper AND i failed terribly.
I was practically tossing and turning in bed and before i knew it the alarm clock rang to wake up for school.
Sleepless nights affected my performance and everything went downhill from DAY1.
Even the chicken essence did not work.
That week i looked HORRID, yes my friends will nod their head in consensus =(
Lesson learnt : Have enough sleep before papers, no joke. It does affect your focusness.
No more harping on exams. IT'S ALLLLL GOOD.
I dread taking public buses which are packed and the bus drivers who love to brake as and when they like.
Not that i mind people falling on me( as long as i dont fall down), more like i mind falling onto people.
Like how i fell onto this guy holding onto a suitcase though i was holding on to the pole on one of the early morning buses.
The very helpful J'ONG stood there laughing while i was struggling to grab her for support =/
On the first day on paper, while on the bus home i had this weird encounter with this women.
I saw her trying to talk to me so i took off my earphones. Then she started mumbling to herself and i totally catch nothing. Gave up and ignored her. It was a bad day to begin with so too bad.
Went home feeling like my body is breaking down with all those spinning head. Apparently Stef had the same symtoms.
Late night chats on the phone have become pretty frequent. Recently i had a chat with the girls till 5 in the morning. it is the chat about the "BIG JOKE OF THE MONTH". Yes you totally wont get what i'm saying. JOY! till now i'm still laughing about your version of so and so HALLUCINATING. omgggggsss HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
After our paper on Thursday the bunch took a break and relax in one corner of HK cafe.
didididlalala ate, talked, sang and most importantly to rest our overworked brain.
Today being the last day of exams, didnt really felt like there is a call for a celebration.
Like what gen said "we didnt end it off with a spark"
True enough, this time round was a huge disappointment for us.
AnyOhow, it's pretty ridiculous to go home after the paper so we chilled at Island Creamary.
Saturday was a day with the junior dancers. It's really nice to see them and Ms Lini after soo long. More of it when i upload the pics.
Churching with parents in the evening. I was so drained i slpt through half the mass cause i only had less than 5 hrs of rest =/
Down to Ikea for dinner and some shopping.
I love their chocoloate Mousse so sinfully chocolatey.
then it was walking through the so bloody big Ikea when i'm half dead.
So while waiting for parents to lala around, i'll walk much ahead of them, sit down on whatever platform i can find and stone. I think i was in a very grumpy mood then.
I'm taking a 2wks break to just recharge before i get back to the momentum of studying once again. It will be another 5mths before we're taking the As so hang in there baybeh.
Pictures will be uploaded another day. For now, I need to have a good night's sleep.
Goodnight.
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I have something to tell you
And i know it won't be easy
I've been thinking these past few days
It might be time to leave
You're like a stranger
Then you're a lover
Never the same
Always hard to believe
(*) i'm caught between goodbye and i love you
Never knowing quite where i stand
I'm caught between goodbye and i love you
Falling both ways nowhere to land
So constantly stranded
I can't understant it(understand)
This double life you've handed me
Is like the devil and the deep blue sea
If we go on much longer
If my doubts grow any stronger
Then i may have to let you go
If only to survive
Give me a reason
Why should i stay here?
I've tried so hard
Just to keep love alive
No more wishing upon the star.
Go and never come back.
Bye